When Enough is Enough

It is amazing…
I switch
I fold
I twist
I turn
I morph
I never know when its coming
Hurry hide its here
Stop it
I can’t
You’re being irrational
No I’m not
You’re going to get hurt
So what if I do
This will pass
No it will never end I will be tortured for ever
Now I have 2 people to fight with
Him
and me
I don’t know which is worse because they both tend to happen at the same time
All that comes to my mind is
I don’t know if life is weird
or if i am
Which ones spinning straight
Not me
I can feel my brain spinning
Making me dizzy and inspired
The wind is kicking up
The leaves are falling
And I am sinking
Do you ever wonder when you’re looking through a window
If someone is looking back
When I look in the mirror
No one is looking back
Im non existant to myself
Atleast for now
Im either lost or just hiding
Sun peaks out through the bird chirpping
I miss these times
I haven’t felt
Truley what i need to feel in a long time
I’ve been doped on legal medication
That I’m told in the morning i better take it
Because I’m talking too much and giggling at nothing
So I do
Then my soul is thinned
My child inside is in time out
But today my soul is flying
And my heart is thumping
My eyes see beauty
And me ear hears summer
And my body feels
Well
There are no words
I like no words
There are some poets that describe in the most amazing of ways
Feelings I can only feel
Not put into words
For me
No words speaker greater and more profoundly than
Adjectives