When Enough is Enough

It seemed like a very long day while it was happening. Here I am 830 at night and I wish my day could just start over from now.

I had a pysciatrist appointment at 10am. I left the house at about 9 thinking I could stop at Wawa go to mac then get gas. Well my trip ended at Wawa. My car wouldn’t start back up. I was very very upset. I called Mike he told me to call his brother who is a mechanic. I was there for a while and now that wouldn’t be that bad of a place to be you’d think. It is safe, I am friendly with the people who work there… things like that. Well, I hadn’t had a nicotine patch on for 2 days at that point and did not have one with me. The urge to smoke was absolutly insane. Knowing that I was there at Wawa where I always bought them was torture. It took all my willpower not go go buy them and relieve some “broken down car stress”.

But I got the car home and that is where I stayed and although the minutes seemed like hours all day long because of the urge, I made it through the day without smoking!!!

Dave isn’t sure what is wrong with my car, could just need an oil change… *fingers crossed*.

I saw Amy tonight, Mike let me take his car up. It was a good session and made me feel good. I wasn’t going to make another appointment with her, but i did. Granted it isn’t until the end of the month. Figures just when we started talking about something really deep and important. Oh well, I can hang in there.

Now drinking wine with my babes having some cheese. Hopefully tonight will bring sleep, because the past bunches of them haven’t.

Take care all

Filed under: Daily Feelings on March 5th, 2008