When Enough is Enough

Well i really dont know what to say, again. But i did really well in the morning at work today, got alot done, i had bad anxiety, but took my meds for it and settled in. During lunch mike and i went over and got the bank statements that i had requested!!! The woman said it could take 3 weeks and it took less then 1!! I was so happy. I think i found what i need on them, but its a cash deposit 2 of 1500.00 so its hard to trace, i can’t even say it was a check she wrote me. So oh well, once i hear more from my sister i’ll be able to put things together more, but im glad theres some progress. I had Amy today, she was helpful, but it was stuff i kind of already knew… we just talked about my mom and different ways to handle the situation and different things i could do to get ready. Mike has been extremly supportive which is great. I feel like im having mood swings, but i can’t tell if they are or i just have a lot going on. And the weather has been awful for a while now, so im sure that puts a damper on things. We came home today after amy to find water in the basement. I thank God it wasn’t worse and more stuff wasn’t ruined. Im so happy my journals and paintings and such were ok, i would of dealt with it, but if they got ruined i would of felt a big piece of me missing. Thats my past, those are my emotions, my story of my life. Everything just seems so surreal latley. I can’t even explain it. Im living a way of life that i haven’t really tried before well i tried, i’ve just never really succeded too well.
Well i guess i’ll go to bed now. Im going to start trying to write all the time again but i say that alot, and i slack alot. hehehehee.

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on April 17th, 2007