Hmm

So i have decided that this weekend is going to be full of ups and downs, decisions and indecision. I went on the bpd fourm, i forget the name of it, and it made me feel better. So then i talked to the girl at work and she asked me to come […]

Trying

Im trying so hard not to cry. I don’t know what im going to do when i go home and the house is empty. I don’t know. Im so scared and sad and i can’t even tell him, it wouldn’t be fair to him. I don’t want to eat i don’t […]

How

How am i going to get through this weekend im already thinking so irrationaly. Im scared.

Poor Sun

Oh and my fish died this morning Sun… my favorite one poop

Vaca back to work

The mason thing in AC was good but i think i have the after vacation blues. My stomach is all messed up too. Last week i was soooo hyper and had racing thoughts, this week im really down. hmm… i have to get that blood work done asap. Im at work […]

GGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Im loosing my mind. Im so full of emotion i don’t even know what emotion goes to what thought or person or anything, i can’t figure anything out. There are some things that i am really bothered by about mike and i right now too. But im at a loss. Even […]

New Day

Well i did alot of talking and thinking on the way to work. I realized this world can kill you, i guess i realized that before since it almost did a couple times, but i guess it sunk in today. So i decided to fight and not let it beat me down

Rough Drafts of Poems For My Niece

My niece is turning 1 tomorrow. And i basically have no money and want to do something nice. And i figured anyways that she has lots of toys and stuff already. So mike suggested i write her a story or something, so i’ve decided to write her a poem. Its something […]

Sister

So im not the only one, we’re actually having to feel and do the exact same things right now.

And now i know….

Why God made Cat Cat