When Enough is Enough

So i’ve had a rough time over the past, i don’t know, id say about a month. I lost my balance on the tiny tightrope that i walk of mental stability. But it has passed. Im back to being determined and mindful of whats going on. Taking control of the things that are in my power and dealing with the things that aren’t in the best way that i can. I know this amazing change has only lasted 2 days so far, but these 2 days have been a breath of fresh air….and i am going to keep it up as long as possible. I realized, yet again, that i could loose everything i care about in an instant if i didn’t change my perspective on things. Mike, my job, my kitty, everything. I can’t let that happen. This will benifit me more then anyone, but mike as well. He has so much stress already, my excesivly bad days are the last thing he needs. Amy told me that everyone has bad days, but out of control days shouldn’t be happening at all. That kind of made it real too, that was yesturday. She suggested that mike come to one of my appointments so he can talk about how he feels and she can help me understand. But we had a little talk last night and he kind of cleared some things up i was confused about. And i felt better. So we’ll see how this goes. Have to start somewhere.

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on March 6th, 2007