When Enough is Enough

This morning was sooooooo great I went downstairs to get our coffee and there on the couch was a HUGE stuffed white bunny with a wrapped present and card in his arms!!! YEY!!! heheheh so i grabbed them and went upstairs and gave mike his gift and card, and we had tons of fun!
Mike didn’t have to go in to work today which was nice. He is working from home today though..i didn’t mind at all this morning. Then we ate and went to Al’s house to help him, and he started working again when we got back, and that bothered me. I was sitting downstairs lonely. So i came upstairs to sit on the bed, hes in the room next to me i feel a little better for that. I guess i just get too mushy when it comes to valentines day. I want it to be lovey dovey every second. And thats just not how it is in reality. Im sure it will be great again when we’re together tonight, but … we have to make cigarettes that means we’ll be watching tv which means its going to be like any other night i offered to buy him cigarettes so we could just be together and he said he wanted to smoke the ones he makes, so thats out the window. I thought that would just give us more time for us tonight so we can relax after a nice dinner. Oh well Im just very very sad right now. I expect too much always. Hes great to me its not that. I guess im just lonley on a day i don’t want to be. I guess i hold today to a different standard. All i want to do is go to bed, i don’t want to do anything for the rest of the night im so depressed. I know its exagerated, and i don’t know why thats just how im feeling. Its not his fault, he has work to do. maybe tonight will be romantic. I’ll be happier cause we’ll be together i know that. I was going to shower then decided not to. Maybe i should do my part. Maybe i should shower and dress up. I can’t wear anything sexy though because i gained weight and it won’t look good. Besides anything i have like that won’t fit anymore im sure. I guess a skirt and sweater will do…its something. I could go all out and do my hair, but i don’t want to do that he’ll know something is up. i wish i got my eyebrows waxed today. damn it. I could go do that. do i feel like being in pain right now though i am, thats what im going to do im going to get my eyebrows waxed then i’ll get dressed up

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on February 14th, 2007