When Enough is Enough

It came back, im bad without mike again. I really miss him right now, and im not going to see him tonight either. im quite upset. I feel like, i don’t know how i feel, but i can physically feel it. Its like im lost. Im scared right now about going back to work. I have 16.00 in my bank account, i guess im stressed and being with him makes me forget about it. Im talking to him over IM and almost asked him to not go to the mason dinner and to come watch me bowl, then i almost wrote that i wanted him to come home to me right now. I can’t do that to him its not fair, so i guess i’ll just get it out here as much as possible. Well the upside too about going back to work is now i’ll be with him during the day, its not like i’ll go a whole day and night without seeing him. Im just pissed its going to be only 3 days a week doing accountant work, im horrible at stuff like that. I hate numbers and paperwork, im just not that kind of person. Im very pissed at them. Im miserable right now, and i want to tell mike that i really do, but its just not right, im having a really hard time with this right now i don’t know. Oh well, atleast i can’t say now that i have to get used to it because my time off is over.
I think today i will stay in bed until my shows are over then clean the bedroom then make mike cigarettes. Yeah that sounds like a good plan.

Well it turns out that i talked to dinyel and we’re going to have a girls night, so i went bowling at 1 so that my scores will count tonight. i made cigarettes of mike first, then left, got home cleaned myside of the bed. i seem to be feeling better. im excited that i’ll get to see mike before i leave. but i just found out the dinner starts really early and he’ll only be here for like 20 min or something…. aww that sucks oh well its something. I asked him if he has masons this weekend and he hasnt answered me, sometimes he has stuff to do on saturdays. I hope he doesn’t….. he just said maybe he can get out of work early but to not get excited. i told him i was already excited too late… i am oh boy that would be so nice!!!! What a treat!!! Oh well anyway i guess thats it

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on January 26th, 2007