When Enough is Enough

I don’t even know how to act now
He wants a pre nup if we get married
Im so unbelivably hurt its horrible
Does he think im a money grubbing whore
Does he not trust me
Could i ever sign one of those
Dooming our marrige into divorce
Does this mean i should cut my losses and run
They are not losses though
They are the happiest times of my life
But i fear they can’t continue for the rest of my life
Like i had hoped
I didn’t get all excited when he came home like i normally do
I went out and did errands and cried in the car
He thinks im over reacting and not thinking of his feelings
What about my feelings
I feel like im nothing but a whore to him now
I wondere if this feeling will pass
Should i forget about it for now
Move on see what happens
Or should i hold on to my hurt and anger
I want to go home
But i don’t have one
Not anymore
How can i act normal to him now
How do i hold my spiteful remarks that i want to make in
I want to run
But i love him
Im so torn
I don’t think he realizes what hes done to me
And i also don’t think theres any point in talking about it more
I told him hes never hurt me so much
Thats all i need to say
When he figures out im not acting the same
Hes going to tell me to get over it
That im being ridiculous
Thats what he always tells me
Mind over matter
Sometimes the wounds go deeper then that
I guess this will help me not so dependant on him
When im hurt im distant
oh well enough for now

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on January 13th, 2007