When Enough is Enough

Well, mike and i talked a bit and he agreed this past week things have gotten better, but thats not what i want to write about.
Christmas time, expensive, time consuming, having to go in stores Christmas time. But what you get out of it is better then the torture im sure. I just have to make sure i have enough money to get the things i want to get. And still pay my bills.
Basically I have alot to do today and its giving me anxiety. If nothing else i have to finish the laundry and go to the bank, those are the most important things. Tomorrow I can go to the stores after my check clears and i can see the balance.
I wish i got dressed for real when i woke up, instead of putting on my pjs, i could of just got up and left when i wanted to instead of having to think about getting dressed. That may sound funny that that is a hard thing, but it is. Im finding what other people see as normal and easy I find as diffucult and trying. One day i have to believe, or else im done, that it won’t be that way, maybe the more i do things the easier they will get. The more natural they will become.
Im still worried about my sister, hoping she gets into the right place, gets the right help. I just called her but she was sleeping, so she’ll call me back.
We’re. we’re as in our couple friends and thier daughter mike and i, are going bowling on new years eve, the money is due by today, i am going bowling tonight so i will reserve and pay for the lane then get the money back. So thats a good reason to wait to buy presents until tomorrow anyway, i’ll have to check my balance. My mom sent me my b-day present, 50.00 plus she had gotten me the cigarette case. But that 50 will come in handy. I’ll use it to buy mikes stocking stuffers which i have no idea what to get!!!!! HORRIBLE. I have one tiny little thing so far, i’ll have to go to target. Maybe i’ll leave early for bowling and go to that walmart right there. I don’t know. Oh well im confused and overwhelmed. I guess i’ll go for now.

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on December 20th, 2006