Couldn’t drink
Everyone was laughing
I was bitter
And it was harder then it should of been
I got anxious
Went upstairs
Picked a fight with mike
really hurt him
Felt horrible
It was like i didnt know myself
I was acting but couldn’t control it
I didn’t know what to do
I couldn’t stop it
He loves me
He protects and cares for me
He treats me well like [...]
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Last Night
A night of terror
Instintaneous terror
He was joking around with me
We were showering
All of a sudden fear washed over me
I played back
Hard to get him to stop
Because my words weren’t working
He got upset and thought I was just trying to hurt him
I was trying to get him to stop
Not hurt him
I was in a bad [...]
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Im here but not
Im detached
I don’t feel like im myself
its not me saying the things i am saying
or doing the things i am doing
things i haven’t done in a long time
horrible ways
making mikes life horrible
i cried
and cried
i feel so sick
getting blood taken tomorrow
i was talking to a friend
and she said i would get through this
i [...]
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I can’t live
Although i have so much to live for
why can’t i just step up and fight
Why do i have to want to die
I don’t understand whats happening
How do i help the doctors figure it out
When i don’t know whats going on
ALl the lies hiding my addiction
Some people say its only pot
And you can’t get [...]
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I just woke up can’t have a cigarette, ugh. I went to the “other side” to get my vitals done and was told to come back. They actually separate here by one door the commited and non commited(voluntary). The nurse man pulled me aside and said to be careful about going over [...]
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So Mikes visit last night was bitter sweet. He told me how he was feeling, which i wanted and im glad he was honest. I know he hurts but i didn’t know he got mad at me. But I do understand. But it was amazing to see him we joked around [...]
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