When Enough is Enough

Ok so I do have more to write
Beautiful day out
Sitting outside
Im still afraid to be alone
I still worry he will not return
I am fine for a while
Then the fear sets in
The panic
The yearning to be near him
I thought i was getting better
Im working so hard
I don’t understand
How i have not found myself
Wondering how to fix it
Nothing seems to be working
Worrying this will always remain
Wishing something will change
It puts alot on him
I stress him to the max
I hope he does not break
Or send me packing
I love him
I don’t want to be like this
Not for me
Not for him
Not for us
I can’t even stand it if someone else is around
I need him all to myself
Chatting with my friends is my only savior
I need to be self sufficient
I need not be so needy
Someone please help me
It is desparate times

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on November 26th, 2006