not good enough

Feeling horrible
Not good enough
Always forget to do something
Always one step behind
Its the little things
He thinks I can do all
I know I can’t
Maybe I can but……
I don’t know
I’ll do what i have to
Maybe one day
I can live
Live up
To
His
Expectations

i can’t take it

I can’t take the superficalness
I can’t take the harshness
The bitchyness
The complete random abandonment of feelings
I don’t want this as my friend
Although i’ve tried
We’re just so different
Im fragile
And she crushes me
Not a good combination
I thought i could tell her everything
Not be judged
Well that apparently isn’t true
Thats how you know you’re in the wrong company
When people [...]

little thought for the day

I like the little things
I like hearing him type

hhhmmmm

Bear really is the Don of the fish tank.

ok heres the deal

Happy Happy Happy
Anxious Anxious Anxious
Future is to be untold and unspoken
Dreams float through reality
Making it hard to see the light
Working through daily life
Struggling to accomplish tasks
Scared paniced terrified
Of doing the simple everyday things in life
What to do
Where to go
Who to turn to
Don’t leave me alone
You have to go out
I understand
But alone I can not be
I [...]

random thoughts

Bear is like the Don of the bowl
My mom is pyscotic
I can’t spell
Mike is working in the yard
Im cleaning the house
Football comes next
Mike is talking to the neighbors
I smoked this morning
My friends are coming and going
My life is changing
But one thing remains the same
I prayed for something i really didn’t want
At the most perculiar time
I [...]

well

Well well well
I couldn’t find my password and now i did. yey figures i find it 10 min before i have to leave, i’ve been wanting to write so badly. Oh well. Now i can.
I have to go up to our store in East Windsor today with my boss, i can’t [...]