Well I went to see Amy on Monday, not sure if i wrote about this…but i cried through the whole thing and she told me to call Erin, so i went there yesturday, i also went to my neurologist in the morning.
The neurologist went well, my MRI was fine, he gave me a script for […]
Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on October 28th, 2006 | No Comments »
i’ve been here before
I just wonder how many times
Im going to be here
How many times the bottom
Is where I am
Im putting myself into a situation
Unknown
Im scared
Im excited
Im needy
I want to take pills
Im dependant on him
Drain him
I want to be better
I want to act like a 24 year old woman
Not an inadequete emotionally child
I want to […]
Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on October 28th, 2006 | 1 Comment »
Did i come close to it
I dont remember
mike was talking and i was talking
and it is all a blur
he said he sat there for 3 hours wondering
if i was going to die
I don’t know what i did to myself
But i do know
That was
Something
For many reasons
I was off the right meds
And fell
Fell hard
Dinyel was there for […]
Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on October 22nd, 2006 | 2 Comments »
scratch
Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on October 15th, 2006 | 2 Comments »
i said house instead of home
i am home
we are making our own home
instead of just a place to live
someties i forget this is the place
i will live forever
the man i will be with forever
this is the place that makes me comfortable
they always say home is where the heart is
and i have found my heart
and my […]
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i am drunk
around the best company
i found a new friend
beautuif flower
loving and caring
this is where i want to be
with good hearted souls
please God let me soar
through this life with other
i want to be the rock
and the soft spot
i want to be that person
that makes a diffence
i have many expericese
to tell
and many experiences to hear
life is […]
Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on October 15th, 2006 | 1 Comment »
Ok so i helped decorate for halloween last night….hmm….so unlike me, i’ve never decorated for holidays. Mike is turning me into a holiday person. This time of year is hard for me…. because of my dad passing and all. But for some reason mike makes me want to push through it all […]
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Could it be
A break from the insanity
A new beautiful world
I have seen for the first time
In a week
Leaves are changing
People are smiling and laughing
Walking with no problem
Spending time with the one i love
He spoils me
Today I will not let fear take over
For today I will stay focused
On the good and win the fight
That goes on […]
Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on October 14th, 2006 | No Comments »
I realized somethings today while talking to a friend
I’ve become completly not independant
When i lived alone
I was so independent
I still was trying to figure out who i was
But i didn’t need anybody
I stood alone
Now things have changed that im in a very serious relationshisp
Because i am trying to work on myself
Yet work and care about […]
Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on October 12th, 2006 | 1 Comment »
Sometimes my expectations of myself are too high
I love him so much i want to be perfect
but im not
i have to remember that
I have to remember
Hes not going to stop loving me
Just because I didn’t clean the kitchen
Or because i forget things
But i just want to make him happy so bad
That i feel like its […]
Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on October 11th, 2006 | 1 Comment »
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