present

sitting on the couch its saturday at 230
i’ve barely started cleaning
im just so cozy sitting here
But i will clean
Because i know i have to
tomorrow is the event
can’t have a dirty house for guests
I love talking to people
you open yourself up to so many good things
so many good feelings
People are so diffent
you take something with every […]

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So my blog was down for a bit
So much to say
Im in Erins waiting room - again
They switched my xanax to ativan
So she wanted to check up on me in one week
Im looking at my job in a certain way
A different way
Actually not only at work but in life
Its a calmer happier life
Getting things done […]

over the time i couldnt’ get into my blog

Feeling betrayed
Angry
Hurt
Scared
Enraged
Horribly something
How do I go on with living
I mean I can live
But how do i work
How do i focus
How do I get this sickening feeling out of my heart
Im right
But she hit below the belt
And on a personal and proffesional level
That was wrong
And hit a deep soft spot
She lied to me
Supposed to be a […]

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I feel like i’ve lived a whole life span, from 3 years old to 24 years old in one weekend. So im on a search .. for me..well and my cat. But i feel like i’ve had an awakening… im not that 8 year old scared little girl that needs to be protected […]