When Enough is Enough

So im a little over excited and happy and hyper right now…Yesturday Mike gave me keys to his house!!!!! I never thought it would happen … not now.. i dunno i just didn’t think of it and didn’t want to push him, and i didn’t…he did it on his own!!!! I love him so much…i’ve never been happier!!! I dunno its such a weird feeling and a big step and he took it and it makes my heart so full to know that…its amazing. It really is. He is all i want for the rest of my life …. i know that…. and its so awsome to see our relationship slowly unfold step by step in the right direction, it feels so good, so overwhelming. It just makes me feel so good…. everything will be ok i know it … we can get through anything together, and are so good for each other, everything is comfortable, everything, just sitting there, or cleaning, or doing projects, or cooking anything … whatever we do, is awsome, i feel so connected to him in a beautiful way that keeps growing even though i feel like its grown as big as it could be … but no…it keeps growing…planting its roots deeper into me and expanding outwards through my whole body …. eveyday its more and more… i realize something about him, or look at him in a different light, or look at his smile a different way, hear his laugh…… feel his stress i feel more and more everyday. He amazes me..without doing anything. He really does. It was all worth it…. all the pain and all the going back and forth in the beginning. I can’t believe he stuck it out with me…. he tried he never left me he knew all along what i couldn’t see at the time, because i didn’t want to see i wasn’t strong enough, i was confused, i tried to push away the feelings i had for him because of the situation, but i never did … i couldn’t …. i just pretended. I am very thankful and very lucky for the way things turned out…. he stuck with me in the very beginning, and has through everything after that. the good the bad and the ugly. Just like i will stick with him through everything. Because i want to. Because I love him. I don’t want to see bad times, but we will, and when we do, I will be there for him…. and good times we will be there to share as well. Everything. I want to make him happy for the rest of his life, i want to love and nutrue and support him and i want to make him laugh, i want to encourage and build his spirit up…for his personalitly and who he is …. is the reason i am in love with him, and i want that to be the reason always. I never want to drag him down or put him down. Any faults he has, i accept and love anyway. Its not always perfect…but it always ends perfect. Thats the point. We rough storms out together, and we fight until it is bright and sunny out and the waters have calmed. He is the sail to my boat. I would be ok alone….but i wouldn’t get near as far without him. In a manner of speaking. I don’t know if thats the right way to describe it, but im sure all my readers get what im saying. I love him, thats the point of this whole entry….to share my joy and excitement with everyone that means something to me. And if i dont’ know you…theres a glimpse into the most happiest parts of my life LOL. I love you mike.

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on August 21st, 2006