When Enough is Enough

Today is a new day…I am very happy very awake now, drinking my slimfast on my lunch break.
I was at the store this morning… nothing bad. Took in some good stuff. Figured out with Robert the listing he wants me to do. That will be a project but I will work […]

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on August 29th, 2006 | No Comments »

I am worried about
Not having my meds
Not being able to do my job
Not being able to do my job in the future
Loosing mike, fallling out of love with him
Loosing my shit at work
Finding a new doctor
Not having a home where i can rest
Being back to where i used to be
Not being strong enough mentally
Getting myself […]

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on August 28th, 2006 | No Comments »

The fear the pain the agony grips you and twists you round and round
anxiety pulling from both ends
Until you snap
Please don’t let me snap … not here not now not infornt of all these people
2 more hours
Then i can call
Then i can get the pills
My life is ruled by pills
What a disaster i used […]

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We are now the proud parents of 3 fishies!!!! You may remember Fish and Fishie who lived in the pond and passed away a short while ago..those were our first fishies together…sadly they are gone But now on the inside in our very own fish tank are Bear, Goldie, and Sun. 3 Little […]

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on August 26th, 2006 | 1 Comment »

Some how i managed not to write yesturday when everything went to poo. I shouldn’t of been lazy i should of went out to my car and got my laptop last night at dinyels house, or i shouldn’t of been lazy and left it in the car in the first place…that was dumb. […]

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on August 24th, 2006 | No Comments »

I woke up in a funky mood. I can’t kick it and i feel like im going to cry. Im so anxious i took another xanax. The doc said i could when i needed it so i did. Im ready to break down if i wasn’t at work i probably would, […]

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on August 22nd, 2006 | No Comments »

I remember when I didn’t have the luxury of meds. I remember when i didn’t have the luxury of consoling. I remember the bad, the horrible, the torture, the pain, the fight, the addictions, the just getting by, the suicidal thoughts, i remember it all. I remember taking a handful of pills […]

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on August 21st, 2006 | No Comments »

So im a little over excited and happy and hyper right now…Yesturday Mike gave me keys to his house!!!!! I never thought it would happen … not now.. i dunno i just didn’t think of it and didn’t want to push him, and i didn’t…he did it on his own!!!! I love him so much…i’ve […]

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on August 21st, 2006 | 1 Comment »

So yeah today started off great. Then i found out my boss was in a bad mood and i had a little problem with work i needed his help on and he was very upset. Turns out he was upset with the book keeper but somehow his bad vibe is being projected on […]

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on August 18th, 2006 | No Comments »

I just want you to know i trust you and so does mike, he was having a moment. But i know you and know you would never do anything like that i trust you very much and think you’re a very giving wonderful person. So i want you to be at ease with […]

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