mike thinks i always forget about him. I went outside to smoke and didn’t ask him to come. Now i feel really bad that he thinks i forget about him. I don’t mean to. Oh boy. Every little thing is setting me off today. Only a hour and a [...]
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Going down hill again fighting my way back up. Torturous. Im making my plans around emotions, around addictions…. im not thinking clearly and i know it. Thats what im telling myself over and over and over and over . Trying to make it go away. I don’t know what is [...]
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Last night had its ups and downs, I tried to stay in my own little world, i smoked i sat on my laptop, i made dinner, inbetween mike and i would fight, well i would think we were fighting and i would cry. He had me do little things like fill the bird seed [...]
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Trying not to cry at work….tired of doing that. I hate it. But im so sad. Everyone is saying its my meds, i guess so. I don’t know…i just poured my heart out to mike and got nothing in return except that its co-dependency.
Maybe it is my meds, im almost having [...]
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I haven’t been writing as much and i don’t know why. I guess I’m caught up in other things, or have nothing to say.
I’m experimenting alot right now in my life sexually, thats the biggest thing going on. Well it feels like a major project anyway, but its exciting and new. May [...]
Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on July 13th, 2006 | No Comments »
So … where do i start, my heart is aching so bad, its horrible. It hurts knowing what she has done to me, to all of us..for so long…hiding stealing breaking promises and hearts. My only parent left and i don’t want to hold on to her. But how much can i [...]
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