When Enough is Enough

Another day at work, falling asleep, tummy hurting, bored out of my mind, wanting to smoke every 2 min. You know the usual stuff i complain about everyday. Why repeat all of it. I have a lot to do tonight too. I have my appointment with amy, then i have to go to my moms get my prescription, drop that off, then go back and clean my room (aka hang clothes) , go to mikes house clean his house cause i said i would yesturday but wound up sleeping on the couch all day.
Why am i so lazy and tired. Is it work, nothing stimulating going on in my day so i don’t get motivated at night. Thats the only thing i can think of. I’m not a lazy person, im just tired. Atleast i go to work, i just want to rest after that. i don’t know. Im still not taking my vitamins and my iron is still low. Could be a lot of things. oh well.
oh what do i do what do i do. I guess maybe after i get out of here i will be more awake, oh yes im sure being stuck in traffic for a hour will wake me up, then going to my moms where shell be in bed when i get home, that will wake me up too. I am just going to go to bed for a hour then get up and clean my room, then clean mikes house. Maybe we’ll see. I don’t want to go see amy tonight, im too tired but if i cancel it is 50 bucks.
I’ve written nothing interesting in here latley…i just complain about my job, how pathetic is that. Well it does pass the time so that is always good, but still honestly, do i have nothing else to say today. I guess not. Too tired to think…
i was pissed off earlier because my mom called and yelled at me for not calling her earlier in the day…her psycic powers told her something was wrong with me. yeah i was sleeping thats what was wrong with me!!!! She was soooo angry i was soooo angry back, we just yelled. It was quite pathetic as well. i don’t even want to go there at this point i really don’t . Too bad i can’t live at mikes im happy there, happy with him, happy to be able to feel like its home. I don’t feel that way at my mom’s house. Maybe i should get a studio apartment again for 500 bucks a month. but whats the point if im going to move in with mike one day. I have to pay off my debt and save money first before i can leave my moms . oh well once mike is divorced i can have a key…that’ll be good enough.
ok 2 hours left i can do it. i don’t know how. But i can do it. I have no choice really. My only hope is the bosses leave early which they really have no reason to do, so i won’t get my hopes up about that at all. coffee coffee coffee that is the key. mind over matter too, which i seem to be lacking a great deal of. My mind just doesn’t overcome my body’s feelings… such as prime example…exhausted. For no reason what so ever. I sit at a desk all day and do nothing. How can i be this tired honestly.

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on June 26th, 2006