BORED OUT OF MY MIND

i finished my work, and i still have two and a half hours to go . Oh my gosh, its just giving me time to dwell. And i have an appointment with Dr. Grosso today, and i really don’t want to go to that. I just want to be home cleaning and [...]

Another Update

Ok , so my landlord said he wants to honor the contract of giving 2 months notice…. so hes coming to take pictures on friday of the apartment..which means i have to super clean all week!!!!! But my plan is after friday to start packing and getting stuff in order, and move into my [...]

Im starting to feel better about the move, i talked to mike, my friend mike, my brother, dinyel, and my mom, and everyone sees this as a good thing, so should i. I will be ok…i know i will. I am going to pray about it and turn it over to God as [...]

I didn’t even shower today all though i should of. I had enough time, i just didn’t feel like it, and wore the same dirty pants…haven’t done laundry guess i’ll do it tonight. Depressed scared anxious guilty all these feelings, i skipped amy’s last night, i just couldn’t bring myself to go so [...]

feel so far away

i feel so far away
im loosing him
and i can’t go to him

mom

So i made the decision that i have to move back in with my mom, i called both her and my step dad to make sure they were ok with it. They were. Thank God…. this is what i need to do finacially. I will miss my apartment and living alone, i [...]

Now im worried

Ok, now im worried. My car insurance. The bill hasn’t come in yet…but how am i going to pay it. My mom and stepdad yesturday said if i need help to just ask them. I feel horrible, especially going to them. And im not going to mike again….hes helped me [...]

I figured it out

Ok, i figured out what we’re doing, we are helping the mason person move. Got it. I’ve never met this person, im kind of anxious, somtimes i get really nervous around new people. I dont know anything about him except that mike cares enough to go help him so so do i. [...]

Its saturday morning, i went over desiree’s last night, then i was supposed to meet up with mike after his party. But his Uncle called him and wanted to go out so i wound up not seeing him. We just talked, i don’t know what is going on for today. He was [...]

WORK WORK WORK WORK

Hello there everyone boys and girls and the like. Ok so im at work, and im here, yup still here…wait for it wait for it….yep still here. I have work to do, i really do. Hmm… wonder why i don’t want to do it. Bordem im guessing, its not the most [...]