When Enough is Enough

Don’t be an inconvience to anyone else, just get through it, don’t talk about it, don’t bother people, just do it yourself. Its not as bad as it seems its all in my very confused tortured mind. I can feel it eating away at me, but i can’t let it, i have to keep it in , keep it together and deal with it. Just like Dinyel said yesturday, my thoughts are not rational, and i have to remember that and use it to get over the problem. I can do that. I can do that. I can do that. I can do that. I can do that. I don’t need anyones help I can do it on my own, i know i can. This has to end. Right now, even though i can’t even see right, and i feel like im not in my own body. No one is going to leave me except if i keep doing this and pushing people away. Mike was great last night with me. I have to call Amy and let her know what is going on. I didn’t last night because i was so exhausted and sick, i just couldn’t do it. Mike made me some food which made me feel better, i couldn’t even list last night, i was sooo tired and out of it, mike had to , i don’t think he was happy about it but he did it…i was so tired and weird feeling that i had to ask him. I will keep up the front that I am ok, and deal with it on my own time.

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on May 24th, 2006