Working on it

I am still working out the mother situation. Amy called me back and said that we would devote tonights session to talking about what i should do and how i could handle it. I’m not quite sure anymore what is the right way to handle my mother. Again last night i passed […]

April 23, 2006
Still at Delaware, I’ll write about the trip tomorrow, right now im writing in Word, and need to talk about my mother. I got a phone call last night from my aunt Carol asking if I was taking my medicine. Apparently my mom told her I wasn’t . She lied…I […]

Part 2 of Mother

Well, after talking to my sister and found out she was just hurt by my mom, with Mike’s help I decided to call my mother. And let her know that she really hurt me by what she said yesturday….she didn’t have much to say. I don’t care, i think she was crying when […]

Vacation and Mother

Well lets see since I AGAIN fell asleep before writing in my blog last night I will start with yesturday afternoon to evening.
I was supposed to go to my mom’s to dinner…. I told her before i had to do work that night. And she still said we’ll have dinner then go up to […]

BABY

Yey!!!! Last night i got a call to go to the hospital, the baby was being born! It is a beautiful beautiful baby girl…Willow!!! omg it was so amazing! i got to hold her twice. It was amazing! I’ve never seen my brother so happy in my entire life, […]

oops i forgot last night

I was supposed write last night, my goal is every morning and every night before i go to bed, but i fell asleep quickly last night and my tummy hurt.
But I had a whole day and night where i was very happy and even. Atleast I filled out my mood chart. I did […]

can’t stop talking

Im still at work but i can’t stop talking, still hyper and got all of my work done that i had to do in the morning. I have some in the afternoon, but the kind I have to wait on other people for. I didn’t go to lunch with mike, he was […]

still going

I went to the pysciatrist yesturday after work like i was supposed to. The Dr. Grosso was really nice. He increased my Risperdal to 2 mg at night and 1mg in the morning. I was on 1mg at night and half in the morning. So we will see if this helps. […]

forcing myself

Im forcing myself to write in this, I haven’t been doing well, and i don’t know why. Could be the borderline disorder or it could be my meds. I can’t tell. I need to get my medicine today for the increase in focalin, maybe that will help. I made an appointment […]

Drinking

I’ve realized i have been drinking too much. when i start at 1030 in the morning and can’t stop, when i drink before work and don’t care. I finally made a descision that this can’t go on….. I don’t want to loose all the happiness i worked so hard to achieve. I […]