When Enough is Enough

I was supposed write last night, my goal is every morning and every night before i go to bed, but i fell asleep quickly last night and my tummy hurt.
But I had a whole day and night where i was very happy and even. Atleast I filled out my mood chart. I did remember that…and i took all my night time medicine
I have off from work today and i already did a load of laundry and have the second load in, I called and schedualed my MRI, its next wednesday after my pysciatrist appointment. I even called my aunt that i never talk to that lives in Cape May, my mom told me her b-day was on the 6th so i called to wish her a belated b-day. I called Amy again to get a hold of her to tell her i want to go every week, i can’t belive how much im getting done.
I have started cleaning yet though, after my shows on lifetime like the golden girls and the nanny i’m going to get up and clean, but these shows are my favorite part of having off on wednesdays and i’m not giving that up lol. Im glad I don’t have sugar in the house or i would of made more coffee, and i’m trying to limit myself. I didn’t think i wanted it this morning…so i didn’t take a to go cup from mike’s, but i wound up going to dunkin donuts and getting a large turbo coffee, heheheee…. but that will be it for the day. I bought a bottle of coke yesturday so i finally have something else but water in the house to drink. As long as i keep going and get everything accomplished that i want to today and don’t start slacking i will be very happy. And i have to list today for work, so i have to squeez that in somehow. But it feels good to well…. feel good lol.
I hope my brother has the baby soon, well not him but danielle lol….. that would be so exciting!!!! I hope it doesn’t happen while i am away this weekend, i would be so dissapointed.
I also have my “friend” which stinks, figures im finally going away and im going to have it…how sucky! lol
Its beautiful out today…. im sure that helps my mood too! I hope i don’t run out of time to do everything i want to do …that would stink, well it would just mean i have to go over mike’s later than i want to.. we are cleaning his house tonight because his dad is coming over tomorrow, and it is half my mess, so i want to help lol, even if it wasn’t i would still help.
My sister cassie told my mom that she might be bipolar and has anxiety and depression. She said she regretted telling her because she thinks my mom is going to bring that up all the time and use that excuse everytime something happens, she will blame it on my sister and won’t take responsibility if something was her fault. I don’t blame her for being worried.
Well all i wanted to say after all that is that the day is good and so was yesturday, thank God i called the doctor when i did, i did the right thing and that is the goal. To keep doing what i have to do, and i will, i will fight until, one day, I am better. It will take years and i’m prepared for that. I finally realize that that day will come….and im not alone. Its a great feeling to have hope.

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on April 19th, 2006