When Enough is Enough

Mike went away to a conference in Phoniex. He left early Wedneday morning. OMG i miss him so much. He is all i can think about. Desiree is going to bring me to the airport on sunday so i can meet him at baggage claim I hope he is suprised, im sure he will be. Absence really does make the heart grow fonder. I just didn’t realize my heart could grow any fonder.
He is doing well out there….im glad this is important for him, but i miss him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We get to talk in the morning over icq and he called me at night yesturday …. which was awsome to hear his voice.
Thank goodness my meds are working or else i would have been a complete mess when he left. I did cry a bit tuesday night while he was packing but thats it. I haven’t cried at all since hes left. Wednesday was the hardest day….the whole borderline personalitly disorder thing where i feel like he left me and i’ll never see him again problem. But im trying my hardest to work past that and just think about the good things and how great he is and how great we are together. I work tonight and tomorrow night so that should make the time go by faster!!!! Thank goodness for keeping busy.
I had to do work at home last night and messed it up, i forgot to list under the second account, i only did one. i drank a bottle of wine and ate chinese food all night…kareem had to come over so we could switch the bills out of his name into ours so i was distracted and forgot to check all my work. Oh well im doing them today.
Its such a beautiful day out…i just want to be outside all day. I didn’t eat lunch , im not hungry i’ll eat when i get to the restraunt. I think i drank too much coffee to be hungry. It will be weird coming straight home tonight, i always go over his house and we have our morning coffee together on saturday and sunday…i love that time, its my favorite time out of the week.
I better make money tonight…gatta pay those taxes, atleast im set up on a payment plan so thats good. 800 bucks i never would have been able to pull off.
I guess i should get back to work now….. i just want to go home…i wish i didn’t need the money i hate working at the restraunt of friday nights…such a long day. Oh well i have to remember it will keep me distracted. I’m just feeling lazy no matter how much coffee i drink, probably because im still a little depressed hes away ….. i miss him and love him more than i could of ever imagined.

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on March 31st, 2006