When Enough is Enough

work sucks, not my day job but the restraunt. I dread going there….all the drama… I hope and pray that my raise at my day job at the end of this month is enough for me to be able to quit. I am just so pissed off…i don’t know why everything is bothering me so much…why i can’t just let it go. I’m sitting at my apartment its 130 I have to finish cleaning my friend is coming over tomorrow to have a girls day and i need to vacuum and dust and clean my bathroom….i don’t feel like doing anything.
I have to go pick up a prescription and a couple of bottles of wine for tomorrow then go to work. I am glad im having a girls day and im excited but i am upset i won’t get to spend the day with Mike. Although he will be working all day anyway. He has to get the software working by monday he has no choice…the owners already told the investors it was working. Same old shit different day. I was so happy and giddy this morning i don’t know what happened. Just being around mike puts me in the best mood…nothing makes me more happy….
When we make love he tells me i’m going to be his wife one day…and we always talk about our future together. Every decision we make is with us in mind.
She hasn’t filed the papers yet which is really pissing me off. I wish it wasn’t in her hands..but she is paying for it since she got more money in the settlement. So we have to wait on her. I can’t wait until this is all over. I will feel so much better.
I have to trust in God that everything will work out. I need to have more faith.

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on March 18th, 2006