When Enough is Enough

Ok so here it is….. i have all this stuff going on in my head, for the first time in a very long time i can say that i am happy…and why you might ask. Its because i left work early Thursday morning and called out on friday…i didn’t even go to the restraunt. I wasn’t feeling well but mostly i think it was stress and exhaustion. That can really wear down on you apparently. I don’t know if that means that i shouldn’t be working at the job or what. But not being there did me a world of good. Maybe i will go back and be ready to go…refreshed. Or maybe it will happen again, i will get depressed and will eventually have to take days off. i feel like i want to go to my boss and tell him that i will need some time once a month just to keep sane. Do you know how embarassing that would be. to admit that i am mentally weak, wouldn’t that make them think i can’t handle my job. Which is exactly true. Oh what to do .

You know its funny, sometimes while i am waitressing some people say things that just sink in, that just touch me. When they talk to me like i am a person. I am in a really mushy mood right now and sitting next to Mike . But he is watching tv and working . I already walked in and told him how much i loved him …i want him to understand that when i say that i mean it every time . But anyway back to my customer. He said that i was taller when he was sitting down . I told him i wasn’t even 5 foot. He said that i was attractive and as long as i find someone a good man to be with that loves me, thats all that matters. I replied thats true … life is good.

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on January 29th, 2006