When Enough is Enough

Paranoia…..bad visions of horrible things happening, death and mike leaving me
Lack of memory…I can’t remember anything …. focusing isn’t that bad, its that i can’t remember things 2 seconds after im told them or do them. I am terrified everytime i leave the house and think my house is going to burn down….its horrible.
Get so bored with things can’t finish a project
so lathargic and depressed( could be because im not happy at work)
Ups and downs downs last longer again..
The borderline is getting worse…pushing him away because im terrified hes going to leave me…2 second delay is impossible at the moment.
I wrote in my diary last night of all the things that i wanted to say to her so i would remember, but i forgot my diary…go figure
Anger

I’m at work and im going to fall asleep….this week and next are the busiest weeks im going to have and there is so much to get done, but once again i can’t concentrate. All i want to do is lay in bed and never come out…its horrible. I am going to see erin today after work and then i am going home and going to bed. thats the only thing i want to do is sleep. It is so hard anymore to get out of bed in the morning. No matter if i go to bed early or late…oh well

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on December 28th, 2005