When Enough is Enough

Happy Thanksgiving.
I woke up today sad. Holidays are hard as those who read this can relate I know. I just want you to know that I am thinking about you.
Im confused a lot and i dont know why. This year will be world war three at my mom’s house for dinner and i wish i could just not go. My brother called me yesturday and made sure i was going . Im doing it for my sister and for my brother. Mike is coming for dessert that will help.
Right now my sister is putting on her make up and my nephew is posing in them mirror showing off his muscles. Im thankful for having them here, it is keeping me together. I feel like im going to cry at anymoment….not just for my dad but perhaps from apprension. i don’t know it is what it is.
I feel badly for those who have lost someone, i don’t know. i guess i’ll go get ready. I will write later tonight. good times, atleast he is not in pain anymore.
Im listening to tracy champan, the song New Beginning and i am trying. I will never forget, nothing will ever be ok or get better i feel like, it just gets different, it just gets more manageable with time. I need to be thankful for what I have, hence thanksgiving i guess. I am in love, i have my family (sister brother and wife and husbands and niece and nephew, i have friends ….) it will be ok if i can just ask for help sometimes.

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on November 24th, 2005