When Enough is Enough

Distance makes the heart grow fonder
What a about a distant heart
Not a wandering one
Not a cold one
Just distant
Again never in this situation
this territory before
Will it come back
Will it grow close again
Maybe the difference is
Its not a distant heart
Its a distant mind
Its not like all the other times
Im not distant because the love is fading
But because my mind is overwhelmed
With shit
Bills work family
Dreading of the holidays
Dreading of the time of year when my dad passed
All of those things put together
For the first time
Im in love
A love that is not being extinguished
By the trying problems and time in my life
I’m irritated
With the world around me
No matter how hard i try
And i admit i do sometimes
I can’t be irritated with him
Agitated at him for no reason
It just doesn’t happen
That suprises me
I was so afraid I was going to push him away
I now know
Thats not possible
I’ve changed
Or Maybe I haven’t
Its the Love that is new
And bringing things
Qualities
Stregnths
Out in my heart
That existed
Just never had fresh healthy
Soil
Warm beautiful
Sunshine
Sweet refreshing
Water
For my heart to grow before

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on November 18th, 2005