When Enough is Enough

As with the end of every day this week, i never thought this moment would come. This being the biggest out of all never ending days. It is 1015 pm, he has landed, last i heard he was still on the plane. I was going to go over to his houese dispite how i feel about it, but for some reason after i took a shower and got ready..i had a really bad feeling about it. When he texted me that he was on the ground i wrote back that he was going to hate me but i was worried about going there. He wrote back, me too talk soon.

OMG what does that mean. I guess he somehow knows she is there or might be there or something, i really don’t know. It’s obviously easy to worry me and that just did I read into things way too much when i don’t know something.

If she is there whatever….she might be getting stuff or something, i don’t know, but someone has been trying to break into his email account all week too…that freaks me out big time. Now my head starts going in the direction it wants and im worried she is looking for stuff. He said he took an envelope of anything paper that i had given him and brought it to his brothers so if she did go there she wouldn’t find it. That just freaks me out.

So now my worry is if i’m going to get to see him. I don’t know how i would cope with that let down, I’m so excited, took a shower, put on make up (he likes when i wear make up, its like a treat cause i never do and wanted to look nice for him!) I want to be in his arms so bad. I really hope that he doesn’t have to go home and fight with her or something if she is taking all the shit from the house or somthing crazy.

It would be fitting for the week though as sucky as its been, its not monday yet so its still my “worst week ever” in a while.

I went to the NIN concert last night with my brother. I worked all day until 5 at the store…uuuggghhh, just what i wanted to do on saturday. But i didn’t have to go to the restraunt because of the concert…it was soooo much fun and nice to hang out with my brother…other than sometimes at work i never get to see him. He drove so i could drink, and boy did i..ooppsss hehehee…i got mike a shirt and he was quite adimant on me getting myself one and he wanted to pay for it, so i did. My first band t-shirt oh boy.

I slept till like 1 today, since my brother drove my car to the concert, he dropped me off here last night and then brought it back this afternoon after he got done seeing Jamie (my niece that i never get to see cause his ex wife is a royal possesive bitch) Then MG, his fiancee Danielle and i went to lunch. After that i came home and worked. I finished about a hour ago. Now i am just sitting here waiting. My tummy hurts really bad. Damn stress makes it sooo much work, i was in so much pain after lunch from eating. I regret eating every time i do. Pain in the ass i tell ya. Oh well, could be worse.

Oh boy he better come over thats all i have to say. I don’t know who else was on that flight with him, he drove so he has to drop his brother’s girlfriend and his friend off i think, but they live right around him in woodbury and thats only 15 min from my house. I haven’t been away in forever, so i don’t know how long it takes to get your baggage and car and all that crap, i imagine awhile. If i get to see him, it will probably be around midnight or later im assuming.

So i still have my period. 2 weeks now. They put me on a stronger one on wednesday and today was the first day of my new pack, i don’t know if i have it all week im gonna cry. Its annoying and is making me sleepy and feel like poo. Oh well. I’m assuming its from the Lamictal, she said something about that it might interfer with my pill or lower the power of it , something like that. I was like do what you have to do, just make sure it does what its supposed to do

Im going to go buy cigarrets and come back and write more to occupy my mind so i don’t loose it

Filed under: No More Egg Rolls on November 6th, 2005